Thinking out Loud

Sitting on the bus with my headphones in. Not listening to any music, radio or pod cast. Lost in my thoughts on my way to my work. There was a time not too long ago that I would've been comfortable. Everything seems right decent job, awesome girlfriend, money in my pocket, bills paid...well most of them. Yet I'm not the least bit content with where I'm at right now. Nothing seems to be enough. I used to read & write more. Stopped doing that so much that I catch myself making the simplest grammatical errors. Something's not right. What happened to that hustler mentality that was so attractive to most, even myself. That hunger for wanting more than just enough. I'm losing myself amongst all the distractions. Work, love, life; I need some time for me to just analyze where I want to be, need to be & an outline to get there. I need to have more of a positive reinforcement in my life. That is what I feel that I'm missing the most. The drive to win is still in me. I just need to uncover it, buried amongst all the bullshit. I'm sure making the initial effort to go to church more will make a noticeable difference. I'm 23 years old now & I feel that I should have more of an identity to show for it. This is the time that I should be taking the most chances. Well I'm not going to continue to sit here & condemn myself like the ad says...JUST DO IT