1,000 Apologies

To have loved & lost is an understatement.
In my internal experience of the searching of my soul.
I have loved, lost, gained, misplaced, & found again.
In my mind as in yours our hearts are forever intertwined.
A thousand apologies I've offered you,
a hundred heart breaks I've been responsible for, a million tears cried.
You mean so much to me my love.

With everything that I've put you through, I don't deserve you.
For there is no doubt in my heart that you are my soulmate.
The question that rest in my mind, is am I your's.

The fear of returning to you and losing you forever is what plauges my mind.
In my journey to find the contentment in the deep depths of my being.
The one face that I constantly come across is yours.
For it is your face that kept me sane,
your face that I see when I close my eyes at night,
and your face that I want to see evey time I open them.

For every tear that I'm responsible for, I now dry.
For every piece of a heart broken I collect, I now put back together.

Sorry isn't enough, you deserve more than that.
Every rose you want, I offer you a garden.
Every walk on the beach, I offer you an island.
Every star you see, I offer you the moon.
Every spectacular moment shared, I'll contain it so we can always go back and reflect on those moments at any time.

With this my love, I offer you 1,000 apologies.
What it is that you decide to do with them rest on you.